Stories That Tell A Story: September 2014

The Wind Rises

Have you watched the latest film by Hayao Miyazake - "The Wind Rises"? The man is an expert story teller and has elevated the genre of Japanese Anime to an art form. I am naturally a fan. His latest offering presents us in his usual style, bright-eyed protagonists who overcome obstacles to achieve their ideals and dreams. From his very first film to this his swan song, he depicts landscapes of blue skies and green fields, of magical worlds, fantastic machines and incredible creatures. I believe the ageless appeal of his films captures the very essence of being childlike - the ability to see beauty, wonder, love and kindness in a world that doesn't always present its best face to us.

It was somewhat a bittersweet end to this last movie of his. The story was written against a backdrop of real wars and rumours of war. Did I see hints of child characters in previous shows now drawn in adult bodies? Was he trying to say that all children have to grow up in the end? I hope not ...

("The Wind Rises" via IMDb)

Idealism vs. Perfectionism

I love blue skies and lazy white clouds. Looking at them give me hope and cheer me up. The weekend that I watched "The Wind Rises" I looked up to just such a perfect blue-and-white overhead. I thought about my work as I walked outdoors. My hope was that my efforts would enable every individual to have the healthy body, soul and mind to enjoy these blue skies as I do.

At work, many think that I am a perfectionist. Of late I think that idealist is a better description. You may laugh that this is just splitting hairs - what's the difference? Well, perfectionists are people who pursue perfection for the sake of perfection. Idealists pursue perfection for the sake of a better world for the people who inhabit it.

The Danger of Disappointment

The problem with idealists is that we are easily disappointed by people. We have high ideals for ourselves and people in general. Disappointment sets in because we find it hard to believe that others do not have the same idealistic approach to this world.

I must confess that of late I have been disappointed by my workplace. No details, of course - this being social media after all. It was akin to feelings I had as a teenager when I realised that my parents were human after all - they didn't always do what they said was the right thing; and (Gasp!) they made mistakes!

As I wrote to someone in an email, these feelings of disappointment were not something that I could consciously control. People at work tried to tell me I was wrong, that I should not feel like that. I learnt that I could not choose to turn my emotions on and off as I wanted to. My mind gathered the sights, sounds, words and thoughts at the workplace to produce an emotional response that was just as surprising to me as it was discomfiting to those at work.

In truth I went to the Bible wanting to find words to justify myself in this work situation. I was right, the world was wrong. I turned to Daniel, Joseph and even Moses. These were men who were brought by God into a highly political situation. Absolute power rested with a few individuals. They started off as foreigners with little social standing in the society. There seemed little chance they could make any change from a human point of view. Yet, through them God demonstrated His absolute Power over human history. Nothing was out of God's control.

In the self-righteous mood I was in, I zoomed straight to Daniel 6:10b "he went home to his upstairs room where the windows opened toward Jerusalem. Three times a day he got down on his knees and prayed, giving thanks to his God, just as he had done before." In this particular episode, Daniel was facing great opposition at work. He chose to demonstrate his dependence on God in a very public manner and in return God acted in a very public manner to defend his honour (that famous Sunday School story of Daniel in the Lions' Den).

The view of the sky and trees from my desk

My Fight or God's Fight?

The first thing God pointed out to me was that my private praying was more important than the public praying. “And when you pray, do not be like the hypocrites, for they love to pray standing in the synagogues and on the street corners to be seen by others. Truly I tell you, they have received their reward in full. 6 But when you pray, go into your room, close the door and pray to your Father, who is unseen. Then your Father, who sees what is done in secret, will reward you." (Matthew 6: 5-6)

OK, so my talk with God was not quite going in the direction I had wanted it to. As I brought my work grouses to God in my private prayers, it showed that I was making this work issue be about me - my team, my work, my ability, my honour, my success. I was fighting because I felt threatened. As God pointed out - the more I fought for myself, the less I was working for God; and to depend upon my own abilities or strength was as good as setting myself up for failure. In the Bible, Daniel, Joseph and Moses clearly knew what I had to learn - the best chance of success lay with aligning with what God wanted. Who could ever stop God from getting what he wanted?

From Daniel:

"26 The king asked Daniel, “Are you able to tell me what I saw in my dream and interpret it?” 27 Daniel replied, “No wise man, enchanter, magician or diviner can explain to the king the mystery he has asked about, 28 but there is a God in heaven who reveals mysteries." (Daniel 2: 26 - 27)

From Daniel's 3 compatriots:

"16 Shadrach, Meshach and Abednego replied to him, “King Nebuchadnezzar, we do not need to defend ourselves before you in this matter. 17 If we are thrown into the blazing furnace, the God we serve is able to deliver us from it, and he will deliver us from Your Majesty’s hand. 18 But even if he does not, we want you to know, Your Majesty, that we will not serve your gods or worship the image of gold you have set up.” (Daniel 3:16-18)

From Moses:

"11 The Lord said to him, “Who gave human beings their mouths? Who makes them deaf or mute? Who gives them sight or makes them blind? Is it not I, the Lord? 12 Now go; I will help you speak and will teach you what to say.” (Exodus 4:11-12)

Waiting on God

The World teaches us that a stellar career is one that is constantly on the up-and-up like a shooting star. It would not be wrong to say that part of the feelings I had at work was the fear that I would be left on the shelf. God reminded me that those who do His work aren't always recognised or rewarded in the ways of this World. We could be in the limelight or be waiting in the shadows.

From Daniel:

[King Belshazzar said]:"14 I have heard that the spirit of the gods is in you and that you have insight, intelligence and outstanding wisdom. If you can read this writing and tell me what it means, you will be clothed in purple and have a gold chain placed around your neck, and you will be made the third highest ruler in the kingdom.”

Summer in Hanover

17 Then Daniel answered the king, “You may keep your gifts for yourself and give your rewards to someone else. Nevertheless, I will read the writing for the king and tell him what it means." Daniel 5:14,16b, 17)

From Joseph:

[Joseph said]:"14 But when all goes well with you, remember me and show me kindness; mention me to Pharaoh and get me out of this prison." 23 The chief cupbearer, however, did not remember Joseph; he forgot him. (Genesis 40: 14,23). When two full years had passed, Pharaoh had a dream ... In the morning his mind was troubled. Then the chief cupbearer said to Pharaoh, “Today I am reminded of my shortcomings. Pharaoh was once angry with his servants, and he imprisoned me and the chief baker in the house of the captain of the guard. Now a young Hebrew was there with us ... We told him our dreams ... And things turned out exactly as he interpreted them to us. 14 So Pharaoh sent for Joseph, and he was quickly brought from the dungeon. (Genesis 41:1,8-10,12-14)

Occom Pond, Hanover - real blues and greens.

Intentional Waiting

I was also learning that waiting on God did not need to be passive. For one, taking a step back allowed me to review my work for the past 4 years. I was able to appreciate what had already been accomplished. With a clearer understanding of the foundation that had been built, I got together my team leaders to review our plans and re-prioritise our work. In doing so, we saw that instead of expecting more resources, we could scale back, simplify, stretch out or even stop some of the planned work. This also gave my team some breathing space. I did not realise that I had wound them up so tightly and put them at risk of burnout.

Blue Skies and Green Fields ...

In the end, I still think it's great to be an idealist. The World needs more people like us who believe with a gusto that the sky should be bluer and the fields be greener. Yet, man can have big dreams but never as big as God's; and man can do great works but never as great as God's. Those in the past who have learnt this watched as the Red Sea parted for them to escape their enemies, remained safe in the presence of hungry lions whose mouths were shut tight, watched themselves elevated to the highest positions in foreign lands to change the very tenor of these societies for God; and much, much more - I think even idealists would have little to be disappointed about when God acts.